!.!.!.to the darkness
As darkness falls, I hear the toll of bells!.
As worthless as I am, I don’t even dis serve the burn of hell!.
This feeling of dread fills my mind, while loneliness grasps my heart once more!.
The inner peace and happiness I so long for, are just beyond my reach!.
As the dark envelopes me, its not this I fear!. I welcome the dark, for here I can cry and be weak, with out judgment!. For here no one can hear me, nor care!. Not that they would!.
Just to be cradled in the arms of some one that would love me!. But, would I sell my soul for this!? Could I sell my soul for this!? Just to have some one!. To hold her tightly as I feel the embrace of her arms around me!. Her warmth extinguishing the cold I’ve felt inside for so long!. Her warming embrace melting the ice that entombed my heart!.
Could I surrender all!? Would I… surrender all!. After all iv been through, as far as I had come, would I give it all up!? …
all I have, is the dark!.
Maybe im meant to be alone!. How could I believe I am worthy of any ones love!? What do I have to offer!? My mind and body feel dead, and no one seems to care!. Maybe in death, I will find the peace, my heart has longed for, for so very long!. To finally be able to just, rest my weary head!.