Not sure if i am in Lust or Love!. Maybe you can help me decide!
I like this guy, he makes me want to move to holland, and gain experience, work there for a while, live with family and come back!. He makes me want to express my creativity!. I have been painting more, and written a few songs which are awesome!. I want to be a better person, so I know I can be the best girl for the guy!. I am currently looking for another job where i can help humanity ( i work for the bank right now, and it's way too corrupted, and he hates the bank too)!. i would not do if it weren't for him!. I dyed my hair bright red because i know it's his fav colour on a women!.
I also have crazy sexual fantasies about him, and he picks up on them, and always mentions some sort of clue of something i thought the day before!. I can't be passionate with my boyfriend unless i think of him!. I try thinking of my boyfriend, while i'm with with my bf, the thoughts of this other guy seem to bombard my brain pretty much all the time!. I can't be with him because he's my bf's friend!. I don't know what to do!. I think he does love me as much as i love him IS this love or am i just in lust!?
I also know i should break up with my bf, and find my own sort of hobbies and friends, and so i wont be so concentrated on his friend either!. I mean if it's love he'll come and be with me right!? and if it's lust then he wont!?Www@QuestionHome@Com