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!.!.!.the amazement of discovery!.!.!.
!.!.!.in thinking it was out of your life!.!.!.
!.!.!.then learning it melded into your life affecting your thoughts,
feelings and behavior!.!.!.
!.!.!.a painful life living in deceit of oneself!.!.!.Www@QuestionHome@Com

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A bad memory in itself is worse for me!. When I realized that I can never get it wrong as well as never getting it done, both the memory and any other side effect thoughts, began to exert greatly diminished painful results!.

What needs to be also understood here is that there are different types of thoughts (vibrations)!. The ones we usually recognize as thoughts are the intellectual ones!. However these are the easiest to handle because they are the slowest!.
The ones which sometimes catch me offguard and do damage are the emotional ones, the ones that bypass the intellect, because they are much faster!. In the same category of speed are the instinctive ones but these are only concerned (so to speak) with aiding in the survival of the body and don`t get involved with this pain that you mention!.
Like some others, I consider the sexually connected ones to be a bird of a different feather, more in the order of a nuclear reactor which provides the very energy required to produce all the previously mentionned energy also known as thoughts, emotions, and instincts!. Again these are also too fast to try to think about!. It would be like putting a little leaguer into a professional all-star game!. Getting a glimpse of these at work is imo the reason for people thinking that we are part of a matrix which has higher levels that we aren`t aware of!. Just because a supersonic jet is much faster than a human does not mean that we might not catch a glimpse of it in the sky, but we are pretty well powerless to have an effect on it, such as stopping it from moving or changing its direction!. Such is the land of thoughts and memories!. The reason for the veils appearing and disappearing is merely the difference in speed of the vibrations!. This is similar to the different signals which can be received by your radio!. It is nearly impossible to hear pop music when your dial is set on a classical music station or AM music on an FM station!.Www@QuestionHome@Com

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The bad memory in itself is more painful!. Where you discover it is like a sauce or seasoning which accentuates the pain of the bad memory, but which in itself does not overpower that memory!.Www@QuestionHome@Com

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the amazement of discovering it hidden behind the veils of one's thoughts after a long time

i hate that when it happens when it hits you randomly and you start thinking about it and letting it create a dark cloud over you!.Www@QuestionHome@Com

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OK, I came in this comment box for something!.!.!.!.now what was it!? !.!.!.!.!.Oh yes, I have always had a bad memory!. I use to think of it as a curse, now at 45 I feel it is a blessing!. You have to live in the present if your memory sucks!.Www@QuestionHome@Com

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the bad memory itself would be constant per say, if there is a new resolved as to why, then there would be a new bad memory to contend with, and again require resolve,?
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!.!.!.discovering the truth you have been living with was false!.!.!.
!.!.!.all the hopes and dreams vanish, lives hurt and the new pain
you now bear is unbearable!.!.!.Www@QuestionHome@Com

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both of these are the same, i think!. whether or not u discover it after a long time!. It is still a memory no matter how long back you rememeber it!.Www@QuestionHome@Com

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The discovery is painfully disappointing, one highlights the other to become one big pain in the end I guess, if you let it :)Www@QuestionHome@Com

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the bad memory in itselfWww@QuestionHome@Com

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