I have begrudged the years - angela manalang gloria.. help!?

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I have begrudged the years - angela manalang gloria.. help!?

can't figure out the literal meaning of the poem..

"perhaps the years will get me after all,
Though i have sought to cheat them of their due
By documenting in beauty's name my soul
And locking out of sight my revenue
Of golden rapture and of sterling tears.
Let others give to Caesar Caesar's own:
I have begrudged the dictional years
The right usurious to tax me to the bone.

Therefore, behold me now, a Timon bent
On hoarding each coin of love that should be spent
On you and you, and hushing all display
Of passionate splendor lest i betray
My wealth-lest the sharp years in tithes retrieve
Even the heart not worn upon my sleeve..."

that's it! somebody help?? i have atleast an idea of the poem, but i need an exact or more broad idea,, thanks..

Best Answer - Chosen by Asker: Sounds to me like when she was young she thought she had all the time in the world to get crazy sexual and now when she's older she regrets not getting any when she was young.