Ok so they're a little "emo" some of them but honest feedback would be REALLY appreciated, they are untitled but numbered!.
1
You said it to me
did you mean it!?
we never could be
I was afraid to commit
a tortured breath
escapes my tunneled throat
closer to death…
my crushed lungs try an float
how long is it before I sink,
someone pull the plug
almost a corpse I refuse to blink,
going to a grave never dug!.
2
a child screams, the torment is clear
the intent the same as my ending I fear
running in circles only to find there’s a wall
something is there to stop hope for us all
something is watching, wating for you
hoping that you will choose to persue
a full emptiness encompasses the room
you’re threatened to drown in the impending gloom
time is so short when your life has aim
so damn long when every day’s the same
and you always wait thinking walls will move
but its insane solidity will not remove
and you will always be here waiting
soon your loving is turned to hating
and the world has turned its back
the light of truth has charred to black
and who will ever know your tears
nothing is ever what it appears
3
I was an epic masterpiece before you tore me apart
you took me on that day I will never forget
you forced it outta’ me, I don’t wanna’ admit
you were always the only one for me
you clouded my vision so I couldn’t see
you told me to wait, but where were you
you never returned, I knew you were through
Shards from the picture cut through my heart!.
4
im a prisoner in a jail of hands
strangling me, im so full of demands
a little child always longing for more
you strangle me till I can’t ignore
what you do to me is beyond pain
you do it when there’s nothing to gain
you torture me through self suffocation
my hands struggle without motivation
remove these ropes that bind me
quit pretending to care, set me free
I won’t be victim to your fierce hate
if I leave today its already too late
been waiting for this day for so long
I don’t know how I’ve been so strong
I just need someone to take me away
I won’t ever come back to you I say
words falsified the moment spoken
I will return once I’m broken
I’ll be back in a long black box
but my hands will be free of your locks
and I will lay cold with a smile on my face
and nevermore will I be your disgrace
5
you joined the superficial war
you don’t even want to talk anymore
so what why should I care!?
its just my heart you’ve begun to tear
I thought you would always be there
but after all promises are made of air!.
I told you everything there was to know
you helped me hang on and never let go
no longer important, you’ve moved on
I believed so hard in you, but you’re gone
I never thought that I was just a pawn
out of life out of you, I’ve withdrawn
I wish I could hate you
but hell, I guess I always knew
there was no way you could like me
I don’t know how I didn’t see
you never meant it when you said “we”
proud is something I’ll never be
6
I belong in a circus as part of the show
the final act where I lose everyone i know
and the person closest i shove away
the crowd cheering at all the words I say
I'm not sure why I love to live in hate
something I grew up in, I guess its fate
maybe I don't want to hurt anyone
so I just shove myself inside a gun
incessant talking to cover the silence
i'm afraid someone will have the sense
to climb past my superficial sin
that is something i'll never do again
because no one ever really cares
7
Im runnin down that little hall,
with that knife I’m bound to fall
but I’m not alone getting hurt
as I fall into the dirt…
People watchin screamin at me
I don’t know why they couldn’t see
I now know it was wrong for me
so screw it all I’m who I wanna be
tired of my stupid thinkin’
time to float and finish sinkin’
I’m movin on from desperation
tryin to find some restoration
arms reach out to drag me along
forgettin all the things I done wrong
they don’t think I’m quite so messed up
tellin’ me the world is ****** up
the mirror keeps on staring me down
watchin me when I turn aroun’
I can’t get away from it’s stare
because it knows why I’m sittin there
sometimes I really wanna see
what you people think you see in me
8
Drenched in my own tears
My mind drifts to my worst fears
Wishing they would all come true
I wish I had never fallen for you
The steam drifts off the pavement
but my head is filled with his scent
He hates me for who I am
Doesn't even give a damn
I know I'm pathetic, don't need to be told
I can be sweating but still feel the cold
Promises broken so damn easily
I don't know why i couldn't see
But why shouldn't he hate me!?
9
& I’ve contemplated death countless times
a release from this endless torment
an intimate longing for my trepid descent
the desire searing holes beneath fragile ground
I crave closure and bWww@QuestionHome@Com