I WENT TO FIND A MAN TODAY
MY JOURNEY WAS NOT CLEAR…
I COULDN’T LEAVE… NOT ANYWHERE
YET WANTED SOMEONE NEAR!.
AND SO I SAT IN SILENCE
BEGGING HE SHOULD COME…!.
IF ONLY HOLD AND COMFORT ME
AT LEAST MY MIND WOULD NUMB!.
BUT AS I SAT THERE LONGINGLY
THE SILENCE DID NOT BREAK…
AND ALL I FOUND TO COMFORT ME
WAS IN MY OWN HEART ACHE!.
AND WITH THAT…… SILENCE DEAFENING
“I CRIED OUT COME TO ME!
WHY IS IT YOU AREN’T LISTENING
IM TROUBLED…!.CANT YOU SEE!?”
AND THEN THE MAN ID WAITED FOR
I HEARD HIS VOICE WITH IN…
THOUGH WITH MY PAIN AND MISERY
ALL SAID WAS…”PLEASE… BEGIN …”
I THOUGHT HIS VOICE SO CALLOUSE…
MY PLIGHT WAS MOST SEVERE…
HOW COULD HE NOT CONSOLE ME
OR HOLD ME TENDER NEAR!.
MY STORY I THOUGHT MUST BE TOLD
SO HE COULD UNDERSTAND…!.!.
MY SACRIFICE NOT EDIFIED
NOR GRACE FROM MY HOME LAND!.
“IVE FOUGHT A WAR FOR YOU MY GOD
AND LOST MY BROTHERS THERE…
I SPILLED THE BLOOD OF OTHERS TOO
FEW NUMBERS COULD COMPARE!.”
“I THEN CAME HOME TO NO ONE
NOT ONE FOR MY PARADE…
MY LIFE … A SHAM WITH DISCONTENT
WHAT IS THIS DAMN CHARADE!?”
“MY NIGHTMARE’S SEEM TO NEVER END
AS DAY TURNS INTO NIGHT…
MY MIND REBUKE’S TO LEAVE THAT PLACE
THE BATTLE’S… OR MY FRIGHT!.”
“AND THEN BY GOD… I FOUND MY SON
THOUGHT NOW MY LIFE BEGUN…!.
BUT NO… THIS TOO DENY ME
HIS DEATH… AGAIN… YOU WON!.”
“NOW !.!.!. NOT ENOUGH !.!.!. MY FATHER JOINED
IN FOOTSTEPS TO HIS END…!.
I ASK THIS MAN IVE WAITED FOR
NOW HOW WILL THIS AMMEND!.”
“I SIT FOR HOURS IN SILENCE
TO FIND SOME PEACE OF MIND
AS WHERE I USED TO SIT AND PRAY
MY PROBLEMS YOU’D UNWIND!.”
“I HAVE NO LIGHT WITHIN ME LORD
NOW HOW WILL I ABIDE…!?
MY LIFE FOREVER RUINED
WITH ONLY PAIN INSIDE!.”
“BUT SIR … PLEASE DON’T DISMISS ME
I HAVE NOT FINISHED THERE…
MY QUESTIONS STILL UNANSWERED
YOU HAVE NOT HEARD MY PRAYER!.”
“IVE SPENT MY LIFETIME SEARCHING
FOR LOVE BEYOND COMPARE…
AND WHAT HAS ALL THIS SEARCHING FOUND
BUT LONLINESS AND DISPAIR!?”
“THE WOMAN I HAVE FOUND BY YOU
IN YOUR NAME THOUGHT A GIFT!.
I CANNOT SEEM TO JOIN WITH HER
MY PRAYER… AGAIN DISMISSED!.”
“ IVE PUT INSIDE MY MIND AND SOUL
BEYOND OTHERS ACHIEVE!.!.!.
AND LOST IT ALL IN TRUSTING
WANTING TO BELIEVE!.”
“NO JOB ENOUGH SUSTAINS ME
NO HOME… OR FAMILY…
MY STORY…!. THOUGH A BOLD ONE
WHY HAST THOU FORSAKEN THEE!.”
ON MOMENT SILENT… THERE AGAIN
AS TWO TURNED INTO THREE…
NOT HUMBLE… I SIT IDOLY BY
FOR HAD HE HEARD MY PLEA!?
AND AS ALOUD MY TEARS DID FALL
MY HEART ACHE …ALL AGHAST…
“I OPEN UP MY SOUL FOR YOU
YOUR ANSWER NOW… AT LAST!!!”
THEN… AS IF BY THUNDER QUAKE
MY SOUL DID SHAKE AND SHRIEK…
THE ROARING POUND OF SHAME WITHIN
MY MASTER… NOW…WOULD SPEAK!.
FOR AS I FELL UPON MY KNEES
NOW HUMBLED BY HIS GRACE…
THY SPIRIT FELL UPON ME
MY ANGER NOW REPLACED!.
MY CHILD… AS YOU CALLED FOR ME
IN ALL YOUR TROUBLES NEED
YOU KNOW… I SAT BESIDE YOU
WEEPING …!.THOUGH YOU PLEAD
AND NOW YOU SIT IN SILENCE
CRYING OUT FOR ME
I NEVER LEFT YOUR SIDE MY DEAR
AND THIS OBVIOUSLY…!.
YOUR BROTHERS HERE AWAIT YOU
YOUR FATHER AND YOUR SON…
BUT BY THE GRACE OF HEAVEN
OHH CHILD… YOU KNOW YOU’VE WON!.
FOR IN THE MIND OF HEAVEN
ALL SORROW IS ANEW
YOUR SADNESS IS FOR NOTHING
MY BLESSINGS HERE FOR YOU!?
WHERE OTHERS THEY HAVE FEARED TO TREAD
YOU MAY HAVE BOLDLY GONE…!.
BUT WAR’S NOT MADE FROM HEAVEN!.!.!.DEAR
NOR SWORD WAS EVER DRAWN!.
THIS GIFT… FOR YOU MY CHILD
THOUGH YOU SHOULD FEEL DISMAY
WAS GIVEN TO YOU EARNESTLY
YOUR STRENGTH KNOWN NOT BETRAY
I TRUSTED YOU WITH GENTLE CARE
TO THOSE WHOM ARE MINE FIRST
IN GIVING LOVE AND KINDNESS TO
FOR THIS YOU ARE WELL VERSED
I ASK YOU NOW…THIS LOVE YOU FOUND
YOU SAY YOU CAN’T UNITE!?
FOR OTHERS BOW BEFORE ME NOW
WITH HALF THEY WOULD INVITE!.
TO THOSE WHOM NEVER HAD A MOTHER
A FATHER…LOVE…NOT ONE!.!.!.
OR WHAT OF NO BEGINNINGS
OR EVEN HAD A SON!.
IF CHOICE YOU HAD TO HAVE IT BEEN
OR NOTHING COULD YOU SAY
BE GRATEFUL THEY HAD COME YOUR WAY
MIGHT EVEN LEFT THAT DAY!?
IT WAS MY BLESSING GIVEN
WHY YOU SORROW NOW…!.
BUT DARED TO SHARE THOSE MEMORIES WITH
AND HONOR YOU DID VOW!.
THOUGH TAKEN FROM YOU EARLY
THE GREATEST GIFT I COULD…
ALL BEAUTY BE AROUND THEM NOW
A GIFT I KNOW YOU WOULD!.
ALTHOUGH YOUR TIME HAS NOT YET COME
YOUR BLESSINGS ARE IN STORE
FOR WANTING TO BE NEAR THEM NOW
BUT FINISH THIS ONCE MORE!.
AND AS HE SPOKE I LISTENED
DEEPER THEN BEFORE…
BUT STILL ONE QUESTION HAUNTED ME
“FOR WHY”…!. I DID IMPLORE…
WITH THIS I FELT… HIS SMILE
DEEP WITHIN MY HEART
SUPRISED… I WAITED PATIENTLY
HIS WORDS… “YOU SAY YOU’RE SMART!?”
FOR WHEN YOU FIND THIS ANSWER
AND LIVE IT TO IT’S FULL…
YOU WILL also JOIN WITH ME
AND LIVE THIS GOLDEN RULE
LOVE INSIDE… AND GIVE IT OUT
YOUR JOURNEY NEVER ENDS…
FOR EVEN HERE IN HEAVEN
YOUR LOVED ONE’S… ALL TRANSCENDS!.
YOUR STORY IS NOT OVER
STILL MORE YOU WILL ACHIEVE…
AND ONLY IN GOD’S LOVE FOR YOU
AND ALL … MUST ONE BELIEVE!.
WITHOUT REGRET I LL STAND AGAIN…!.!.
DEFYING I WILL FALL
THIS TIME…!. I KNOW IS DIFFERENT
…!.!. IM GOING TO GIVE MY ALL
AN SO I ASK MY TEACHER…
THE MAN THAT I’D SEARCHED FOR……!.
TO STAY BESIDE AND GUIDE ME
AND LET ME FRET NO MORE!.
I THANK YOU FOR THE LOVE YOU SHARED
YOUR CHILDREN UNTO ME
AND NOW THEY HAVE RETURNED TO YOU
TO THIS I NOW CAN SEE!.
I WAKEN FROM MY SILENCE
AND GOD STILL HERE WITH ME
WITH ALL THAT I HAVE YET TO COME…!.
ILL FIND IT HAPPILY!.Www@QuestionHome@Com