Flying in a hole
i'm trapped
and suffocating in my own pain
my anger is seething-
and breathing through my veins
i'm so deep in this black pit
my mind is too far gone and too sick
i don't even know if i can be saved
i've dug my own grave
for my own reasons
for my own shame
so with the passing of the seasons
my hatred will remain the same
to bounce off the walls of my hell hole
and let the darkness eat a way into my soul
i can not escape
the demons of my fate
i can not with hold
the anguish in my heart, as it loses control
the days just grow more sullen to me
why won't God just let me be!?
i can only take so much more of myself
i just want to be through with myself
i feel i am ever changing
into a child who is so demanding
who needs some understanding
where can i run too!?
when i've already decided to confide in you
who am i!?
to make you decide
what is to become of me
you run in the blood i bleed
i guess i've just given up
i can't drink from this shameful cup
i've had my fill
of what life can deal
into my hands
this liquid with a taste so bland
i need to get out of this hole
i need to just let go
let it be
so my mind may rest in peace
so my heart can continue to beat
and my soul can continue to breathe
time is wasting
as i'm contemplating
on how to let myself loose
from this haggard noose
the death of a thousand years
could symbolize all of my tears
because i can never get them back
but they'll leave their mark like a scratch
a scar on my life
a gash in my eye
so no matter how hard i smile
you could see that i've been walking through the valley of death for many miles
i've tasted evil
danced with the devil
dug through my past with a shovel
tossed out the ruble
and still i can't find peace
i'd give up the blood i bleed
i can't go anywhere
until i can find some stairs
to lead me out of my own misery
to justify the hell that life can bring
i have to get out of this hole
before it swallows me wholeWww@QuestionHome@Com