Have you ever made such a mess of things, you have had to ....?

Question: Have you ever made such a mess of things, you have had to !.!.!.!.!?

Start back at a square one!.!. in every way!.Www@QuestionHome@Com

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I am doing that right now, and I'll be trying to clean up and change my ways for the rest of my life!.
The 'Mess' in my life, cost me my life!. Cost me the life I had worked so hard for, so long for and had cost so much!.
Now the cost is higher, the length longer and the hard get's harder!.
The 'Square One' of most, shall never be reached!. My square is to be made!.
So YOU have to reach, I have to make!.Www@QuestionHome@Com

You've hit a chord with me on this one!. When I have been in situations that haven't worked out as I expected, I have often cried a lot and then having let it out, decided that the only way I can go is to start up all over again!. Nearly all those times involved a major concerted effort to get out of the situation first before trying again, and more often than not, trying at life in a different way!.

Speaking from recent experience, I moved from one state to another, for a job I was promised (which was 3 times what I had been earning)!. It was going to be a new life for me and my children, but as things turned out, funding for the project did not come through as promised and I was left without a job, no money and the kids still with their dad in another state until I found a home for them!.

My choice at the time was homelessness as there was nowhere I could go without money as I had spent my last cent waiting through the delays of the propsed funding to come through!. I met a man who offered a way out, for us to move in together up north a bit and out of the city!.

Long story short, he fell in love with me and cannot understand why I cannot love him after all the help he has dished out to me!. Because of my 'line of work' and other complications with court cases, etc!., I have had to hold off (not a great way to describe it as there is more to it than just that) on job offers and it has made the situation very electric as no matter how I explain it to him, he just sees me as his LIFE and won't entertain my dreams of having to be in a relationship where one person doesn't impose their will on another!.

Can I start over again!? It's easy to say that I can but doing would be the hard part!. If I leave now, with very little money and the prospect of losing this job that is lined up, I may end up on the streets!. At my age (44) and never having been there, it could be an interesting lesson, but not one I purposefully want to enter into!. I am grateful for his help and support, but between having compromised myself where it is a sex or nothing situation, I would rather have gone without!.

If your life is being threatened, get out and seek help!. That has always been my belief, so how do I justify my position!? My life is not being threatened, but my sanity is!.!.!. so where do we draw the line!? My decision to stay and ride the tide for now is my choice and whatever the consequences are, I will wear, but I have promised myself thre will be no next time for an unconstructive choice!.!.!. how many times have I said that!? But it' true, once this situation is over and I am back on my own feet again, I will stay independent!. (sorry to those of you who might be saying that I used this guy!.!.!. I didn't!. He offered to help me!. I didn't ask!. Then when I accepted, I helped him in every way through his life's routine, did things that don't involve money!.!.!. (and began to care about him and accepted to be his girlfriend) but now all he complains about is how much money he spent on me!.!.!. and how little sex he is getting after all that he has done!.

I'd like to start back at square one, but square one is some way away!.!.!.Www@QuestionHome@Com